But the pages are all torn and frayed

how I wish there is someone who allow me to be selfish

but, it will never happen

Thursday, February 24, 2011

8:41 PM

alright!
I'm done with my report!
left with scanning of result slip,
finding part time job,
renew passport
to go! :)

cycle, swim, run, guitar, reading(probably)
during this period before I enlist!
can't believe I'm saying enlist now.
time....flies...
I won't say I'm finally becoming a man...
because,
I'm already a man. :D
I am, I fking am.
don't test me!

ciao!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

8:48 PM

Report,
application for uni,
make passport,
find part time job.
all this to be done in next ten days.

no time to finish the book i borrowed from library, gotta return by 26 feb zzz
no time to cycle, swim, run
zzzzzzzzzz

rahhh. faster get over with it! jy!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

9:58 PM

I'm doing my best to control my temper now.
and its doing good.
:)

been finding pet shop jobs now.
damn, it so difficult.
zzz
haiz!

her voice melts my heart~
so sweet~

I bet there are millions of girls jealous of her voice.
haha!

kk, good night!

all the best cls!

Monday, February 7, 2011

6:06 AM

going renew passport later.
doing this kind of stuff with parent is really fuck up.
never once a smooth trip.
not that there's accident or whatever shit,
its all the arguing and all.
just can't stop nagging.
i wanna live alone ASAP!

my cousin told me yesterday,
when I enlist,
I will definitely miss home.
I don't think so.
My bed probably.

zz

I thought I might suffer depression -.-
so I went online yesterday and check the symptoms.
did show a few symptoms.
a few, so I'm not really suffering.
hah!
but I see the other symptoms.
scary...
especially the thought of suicide.
like what a depressed would do before they suicide.
1. talking about suicide
2. strong feeling of hopelessness
3. act recklessly as if they have a death wish (eg, speeding through red lights)
4. calling or visiting people to say goodbye (nb fking scary)
5. Getting affairs in order (eg, giving away prized possessions, tying up loose ends)
6. saying things like, "everyone would be better off without me"
7. a sudden switch from fucking depressed to acting calm and happy

what the hell!

depression is really scary shit.
http://helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm
here's a link to it if you want to know more.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

9:29 PM

can't go back visit waigongwaipo this year. :(
I already plan what to do when I'm there.
ask them let me try motorbike!
extract "fluid" from rubber trees with waigongwaipo.
see my small cousinssss,
they must be 10+ now already.
should be enlist by this year already.
where find time to go back again?
hah!

my thoughts already have their ups and downs
whenever I think about my route to vet,
let alone my actual path towards it.
nearly given up of that ambition today.
immediately cycle to lakepark under the scorching sun.
i must say, that place is really a "I-will-be-strong-place"
I must carry on no matter how difficult it is.

not that I wanna emo,
but I'm quite sure that I would be walking this path alone.
be strong yo!

first,
gotta correct my temper.
auditing is making me more and more bad tempered.

second,
save up save up save up!

alright, these two are already big big big tasks.
all the best!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

10:53 AM

Please stop the flood.

I wanna visit my waigongwaipo..

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